♥Tuesday, March 30, 2010♥
300310 ; S & D.
safawi ..
idk what to say..
hmmm, i love youh.
i always did. hahahha d;
okeay, hope to last long with youh..
i look around,
i used to love to live the single life.
and then i told myself that i would never fall in love again.
but then youh came around and suddenly i understand,
that i have never really been in love before..
and suddenly i know what all the love songs that they write are all about..
and suddenly i dont care if its right or wrong as long as you're around,
and suddenly the things that used to sound clishe,
are perfectly right in my eyes..
perfectly right with this guy..
i know its weird,
but we are connected.
and in some strange and crazy way i think,
that we have always been.
and now you're here,
and youh say youh love me.
and it feels so right,
and in fact it feels so good that i can't sleep at night..
okeay, that's my post (:
yay us (: wow. cant believe this is happening.
youh complete me.
& youh healed my brokenheart.
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ safawi's property ] d;
safawi ..idk what to say..
hmmm, i love youh.
i always did. hahahha d;
okeay, hope to last long with youh..
i look around,
i used to love to live the single life.
and then i told myself that i would never fall in love again.
but then youh came around and suddenly i understand,
that i have never really been in love before..
and suddenly i know what all the love songs that they write are all about..
and suddenly i dont care if its right or wrong as long as you're around,
and suddenly the things that used to sound clishe,
are perfectly right in my eyes..
perfectly right with this guy..
i know its weird,
but we are connected.
and in some strange and crazy way i think,
that we have always been.
and now you're here,
and youh say youh love me.
and it feels so right,
and in fact it feels so good that i can't sleep at night..
okeay, that's my post (:
yay us (: wow. cant believe this is happening.
youh complete me.
& youh healed my brokenheart.
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ safawi's property ] d;
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/30/2010 09:40:00 PM
@ 3/30/2010 09:40:00 PM
♥Saturday, March 27, 2010♥
this goes out to someone that was ONCE the most important person in my life..
its just.. i dont even know..
youre the one that i want, the one that i need
the one that i got to have, just to succeed.
when i first saw you, i knew it was real.
im sorry about the pain that i made you feel..
that wasnt me ; let me show you the way
i looked for the sun, but it was raining yesterday..
i remember when i first looked into your eyes,
it was like God was there, heaven in the skies..
i wore a disguise because i didnt want to get hurt.
but i didnt know i just made everything worse..
you told me we were crazy in love..
but you didnt care about anything i do.
if you loved me as much as you said you did,
then you wouldnt have hurt me like how you did.
now you pushed me away like you never even knew me,
i loved you with all my heart, really and truly..
i guess you forgot about the times that we shared,
i dont know how i could do you so wrong..
i really want to show you i really need to hold you.
i really want to know you like no one else could know you..
youre number one, always in my heart.
and now i cant believe that our love is torn apart (!)
i need you and i miss you,
i want you and i love you because
i want to hold you,
you were my everything
and i really miss you..
i know youre going to sit and play this with your new girl.
and then sit and laugh as youre holding her hand..
the thought of that just shatters my heart,
it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart..
at times we wont talk, i was scared to lose you.
now i want to hold you until i cant hold you.
without you, everything seems so strange.
your name is forever planted in my brain, heart & soul.
damn it (!) im insane (!)
take away the pain,
take away the hurt..
i guess everything you said was a lie.
when i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes..
now im not even a thought in your mind..
i can see clearly, my love is not blind (!)
i just wish everything could have turned out differently..
i had a special feeling about you &
i thought maybe you did too.
you wont understand, but..
no matter what, you will always be in my heart.
our first day, it seemed so magical..
i remember all the time that i had with you..
remember when we first met ?
you looked so special to me.
we hit it off, i knew it was real..
but now i cant take all the pain that i feel..
reach in your heart, i wonder if im still there..
i dont want to hear that you no longer care..
remember the times ? remember when we met ?
i didnt think you would ever do this to me..
i didnt think you would want to see me so depressed,
i thought you would be there for me, this, i confess..
you said you loved me, was that a lie ?
now im nothing to you, i feel so down.
i tried, i tried, i tried, and i tried.
now on the inside, it feels like im dying (!)
and i do miss you, i miss you like hell.
i just thought we were meant to be,
i guess now, we will never know..
the only thing i want is for you to be happy.
whether it be with me, or without me.
i just want you to be happy..
it just seems so hard to forget you.
i tried to. but i cant.
nothing seems right without you around.
but i know, i have to move on.
well, its not as if you still love me..
so, i guess, friday i'll be over you.
it would take me a week, i hope.
takecare and goodbye,
i loved you. i know i did.
idontknow if you did.
goodbye, honeyku..
DOTDOTDOT ;
STAR [ alone. ]
its just.. i dont even know..
youre the one that i want, the one that i need
the one that i got to have, just to succeed.
when i first saw you, i knew it was real.
im sorry about the pain that i made you feel..
that wasnt me ; let me show you the way
i looked for the sun, but it was raining yesterday..
i remember when i first looked into your eyes,
it was like God was there, heaven in the skies..
i wore a disguise because i didnt want to get hurt.
but i didnt know i just made everything worse..
you told me we were crazy in love..
but you didnt care about anything i do.
if you loved me as much as you said you did,
then you wouldnt have hurt me like how you did.
now you pushed me away like you never even knew me,
i loved you with all my heart, really and truly..
i guess you forgot about the times that we shared,
i dont know how i could do you so wrong..
i really want to show you i really need to hold you.
i really want to know you like no one else could know you..
youre number one, always in my heart.
and now i cant believe that our love is torn apart (!)
i need you and i miss you,
i want you and i love you because
i want to hold you,
you were my everything
and i really miss you..
i know youre going to sit and play this with your new girl.
and then sit and laugh as youre holding her hand..
the thought of that just shatters my heart,
it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart..
at times we wont talk, i was scared to lose you.
now i want to hold you until i cant hold you.
without you, everything seems so strange.
your name is forever planted in my brain, heart & soul.
damn it (!) im insane (!)
take away the pain,
take away the hurt..
i guess everything you said was a lie.
when i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes..
now im not even a thought in your mind..
i can see clearly, my love is not blind (!)
i just wish everything could have turned out differently..
i had a special feeling about you &
i thought maybe you did too.
you wont understand, but..
no matter what, you will always be in my heart.
our first day, it seemed so magical..
i remember all the time that i had with you..
remember when we first met ?
you looked so special to me.
we hit it off, i knew it was real..
but now i cant take all the pain that i feel..
reach in your heart, i wonder if im still there..
i dont want to hear that you no longer care..
remember the times ? remember when we met ?
i didnt think you would ever do this to me..
i didnt think you would want to see me so depressed,
i thought you would be there for me, this, i confess..
you said you loved me, was that a lie ?
now im nothing to you, i feel so down.
i tried, i tried, i tried, and i tried.
now on the inside, it feels like im dying (!)
and i do miss you, i miss you like hell.
i just thought we were meant to be,
i guess now, we will never know..
the only thing i want is for you to be happy.
whether it be with me, or without me.
i just want you to be happy..
it just seems so hard to forget you.
i tried to. but i cant.
nothing seems right without you around.
but i know, i have to move on.
well, its not as if you still love me..
so, i guess, friday i'll be over you.
it would take me a week, i hope.
takecare and goodbye,
i loved you. i know i did.
idontknow if you did.
goodbye, honeyku..
DOTDOTDOT ;
STAR [ alone. ]
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/27/2010 05:17:00 PM
@ 3/27/2010 05:17:00 PM
♥Friday, March 26, 2010♥
at last. i had the courage to ask for a break up
on 25 march, well, it ended.
everything about me and him.
felt so damn sad.
didnt eat the whole day.
but its fine.
i'll get over it.
on 25 march, well, it ended.
everything about me and him.
felt so damn sad.
didnt eat the whole day.
but its fine.
i'll get over it.
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/26/2010 09:01:00 PM
@ 3/26/2010 09:01:00 PM
♥Tuesday, March 23, 2010♥
shah,
"i got to say what's on my mind..
something about us doesnt seem right, these days.
i have got to do whats best for me.
i got to move on and be who i am.."
all this time i was wasting my time,
hoping youh would come around..
i have been giving out chances every time,
and all you do is let me down..
and you're thinking that we will be fine again,
but not this time around..
i could have loved youh all my life
if youh hadnt left me waiting for your messages or calls.
youh had me falling for youh, honey.
& it never would have gone away.
youh used to shine so bright but i watched all of it fade..
now deep down inside,
you know it cuts like a knife..
but im too proud to show it..
the pain in my chest,
it feels like i lost my breath..
he just doesnt know it..
so many things that im dying to say
but i cant seem to tell him..
its killing me to know that he wants to leave,
but im not gonna beg him to stay.
cause i have got my pride, im not gonna cry..
there wont be no tears falling from these eyes..
dont need him to see that its killing me..
so this is what im saying ;
youh dont have to worry about me
boy, i will be fine..
youh dont have to call me again
boy, its alright..
i cant believe that i fell so deep,
and i let my heart so open (!)
now i got to try to keep it inside as these words,
are better left unspoken..
i try to chase the memories away,
but they haunt me everyday..
i hope i get over this phase because im stuck inside this haze..
so, honey..
im sorry. i have to say goodbye.
" we might find our place in this world someday..
but at least for now i got to go my own away "
"i got to say what's on my mind..
something about us doesnt seem right, these days.
i have got to do whats best for me.
i got to move on and be who i am.."
all this time i was wasting my time,
hoping youh would come around..
i have been giving out chances every time,
and all you do is let me down..
and you're thinking that we will be fine again,
but not this time around..
i could have loved youh all my life
if youh hadnt left me waiting for your messages or calls.
youh had me falling for youh, honey.
& it never would have gone away.
youh used to shine so bright but i watched all of it fade..
now deep down inside,
you know it cuts like a knife..
but im too proud to show it..
the pain in my chest,
it feels like i lost my breath..
he just doesnt know it..
so many things that im dying to say
but i cant seem to tell him..
its killing me to know that he wants to leave,
but im not gonna beg him to stay.
cause i have got my pride, im not gonna cry..
there wont be no tears falling from these eyes..
dont need him to see that its killing me..
so this is what im saying ;
youh dont have to worry about me
boy, i will be fine..
youh dont have to call me again
boy, its alright..
i cant believe that i fell so deep,
and i let my heart so open (!)
now i got to try to keep it inside as these words,
are better left unspoken..
i try to chase the memories away,
but they haunt me everyday..
i hope i get over this phase because im stuck inside this haze..
so, honey..
im sorry. i have to say goodbye.
" we might find our place in this world someday..
but at least for now i got to go my own away "
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/23/2010 07:51:00 PM
@ 3/23/2010 07:51:00 PM
♥♥
ahhhhhhhhh, halo peeps who are reading this (:
welcome to my half-dead blog.
now, im trying to make it FULLY-alive now ^^
okay, to start things off,
life has been a mess. nothing goes right.
everything i do is wrong to my mum.
she controls me in everything i do.
& im so god-damn irritated. i need a counselor.
okay, how can youh not be pissed at my mum when ;
firstly, she nags at me the whole time.
secondly, doesnt allow me to have fun.
thirdly, doesnt let me msg my friends.
fourthly, gets angry at me like, whenever im home.
and many more controlling-me-stuffs.
now, she wants to send me every single day to school.
cause she just dont want to see me walking with safawi.
and its such a stupid lame excuse.
& now what ? she said she wants to fetch me everyday ?
OMG. im sooooooooooooooooo pissed off.
and now she's angry at me & says that tmr she will not talk to me otw to school.
what ? then why the hell would youh send me to school ?
i'd rather walk alone if nobody is talking to me.
urgh, im just hating life. it is so frustrating to be me.
with a stupid controlling parent.
i love my dad. although he talks behind me,
he still loves me. he doesnt show his temper.
and he only nags when he thinks that im too much.
and he has never nagged at me before.
but was super-damn angry at me.
but then he tried to win back my heart.
so, i love my dad more okay.
seriously, he is so much better in parenting.
but sometimes, he's lame too. hahahha.
okay, and now..
about the stupid love issue.
im breaking up with shah.
thats my final decision.
unless he messages me tonight.
so, that will be considered falling for him over again.
but until then, im with this decision.
im sorry, i have to. youh dont seem to love me anymore.
& i think i have to move on.
okay, that will be another post. later on.
so now, i so love these people ;
RASHIQA.
NADHIRAH.
FILZA.
MARDHIAH.
WAI SIANG
ADLI
XIN YU
they're so cute.
hahahahahha. but nadhirah ..
it's hard for me to console her when she's emo ):
idk how to console people ): ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
okay. so now.. idk what else to say.
everything seems so fun in school.
its so fun. TAMPINES SECONDARY rocks (!) woots ~
never regret to be in this school (!) hahahha.
the school damn big.
& i like the way to music room.
very spacious sia. but got camera ): sadly so.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
if not, confirm i am there all the time..
hahahhaha, so yeah. everything is so freaking fun.
woots ~ so now, idk what else to say.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
ARE YOUH HAPPY NOW FILZA ???
ahahhahah, im going to post another post about shah.
so, read it kay filza ? (:
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ life ]
welcome to my half-dead blog.
now, im trying to make it FULLY-alive now ^^
okay, to start things off,
life has been a mess. nothing goes right.
everything i do is wrong to my mum.
she controls me in everything i do.
& im so god-damn irritated. i need a counselor.
okay, how can youh not be pissed at my mum when ;
firstly, she nags at me the whole time.
secondly, doesnt allow me to have fun.
thirdly, doesnt let me msg my friends.
fourthly, gets angry at me like, whenever im home.
and many more controlling-me-stuffs.
now, she wants to send me every single day to school.
cause she just dont want to see me walking with safawi.
and its such a stupid lame excuse.
& now what ? she said she wants to fetch me everyday ?
OMG. im sooooooooooooooooo pissed off.
and now she's angry at me & says that tmr she will not talk to me otw to school.
what ? then why the hell would youh send me to school ?
i'd rather walk alone if nobody is talking to me.
urgh, im just hating life. it is so frustrating to be me.
with a stupid controlling parent.
i love my dad. although he talks behind me,
he still loves me. he doesnt show his temper.
and he only nags when he thinks that im too much.
and he has never nagged at me before.
but was super-damn angry at me.
but then he tried to win back my heart.
so, i love my dad more okay.
seriously, he is so much better in parenting.
but sometimes, he's lame too. hahahha.
okay, and now..
about the stupid love issue.
im breaking up with shah.
thats my final decision.
unless he messages me tonight.
so, that will be considered falling for him over again.
but until then, im with this decision.
im sorry, i have to. youh dont seem to love me anymore.
& i think i have to move on.
okay, that will be another post. later on.
so now, i so love these people ;
RASHIQA.
NADHIRAH.
FILZA.
MARDHIAH.
WAI SIANG
ADLI
XIN YU
they're so cute.
hahahahahha. but nadhirah ..
it's hard for me to console her when she's emo ):
idk how to console people ): ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
okay. so now.. idk what else to say.
everything seems so fun in school.
its so fun. TAMPINES SECONDARY rocks (!) woots ~
never regret to be in this school (!) hahahha.
the school damn big.
& i like the way to music room.
very spacious sia. but got camera ): sadly so.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
if not, confirm i am there all the time..
hahahhaha, so yeah. everything is so freaking fun.
woots ~ so now, idk what else to say.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
ARE YOUH HAPPY NOW FILZA ???
ahahhahah, im going to post another post about shah.
so, read it kay filza ? (:
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ life ]
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/23/2010 07:25:00 PM
@ 3/23/2010 07:25:00 PM
♥Friday, March 12, 2010♥
halo peeps.
waaaaaaaaah,
got a present from blackie ^^
a cute bear,
with a card,
which he bought in front of me
and took it home
to write in a lot of things d;
hahahhahahahha ^^
just called it ;
STAR AVENGER.
cause my nickname is STAR.
and his is AVENGER.
hahahah.. and we just decided that it is a...
BOY (!) hahahahhahhaha ^^
hahaha, strange monster.
hahahahah, im a strange alien.
i call him strange monster
then he call me stange alien (!)
taq baek (!) hahahahahha,
but cute d; hahahah..
okay, that is all.
going to temasek carnival tmr.
seeya peeps (:
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ star avenger ] precious.
waaaaaaaaah,
got a present from blackie ^^
a cute bear,
with a card,
which he bought in front of me
and took it home
to write in a lot of things d;
hahahhahahahha ^^
just called it ;
STAR AVENGER.
cause my nickname is STAR.
and his is AVENGER.
hahahah.. and we just decided that it is a...
BOY (!) hahahahhahhaha ^^
hahaha, strange monster.
hahahahah, im a strange alien.
i call him strange monster
then he call me stange alien (!)
taq baek (!) hahahahahha,
but cute d; hahahah..
okay, that is all.
going to temasek carnival tmr.
seeya peeps (:
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ star avenger ] precious.
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/12/2010 09:15:00 PM
@ 3/12/2010 09:15:00 PM
♥Tuesday, March 2, 2010♥
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY mum & dad (!)
hahahhaha, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (;
tmr is my dad's bday.
idk what to buy for him -.-
so stressed out . hahhahah.
sooo, today...
went to school
with blackie.
had a lot of fun in school.
became something like an incharge person.
hahahhaha. so cool.
i have a blister on my right thumb ):
hahhahahha, out of context d;
soooooooooo then..
PSP was damn funfunfun (!)
then went home with blackie,
effa, nadhirah and rashiqa.
actually, only with rashiqa and blackie ahhs.
hahahhaha, it was awkward okay (!)
me, nad, iqa and effa went to mac.
with blackie ahhs.
they kept disturbing me and blackie -.-
then effa had to go back to school.
followed her.. with rashiqa and blackie.
nadhirah had to meet her mum then.
she didnt follow back to school.
went to school back....
then effa and rashiqa kept leaving me behind with blackie -.-
but it was fun okay..
cause blackie was like very outgoing..
when they left me behind,
blackie was far behind me then,
blackie ran to me to walk beside me..
hahahha, then when rashiqa saw ,
he smilesmile (!) hahahha,
like he's playing along d;
hahahha. okaaaaaaaaaaaay,
effa suddenly wanted a bday wish.
i was scared... she wanted it from me -.-
i obviously knew it had something to do with blackie and me -.-
andandand then, i didnt promise to do it..
but i said i could try.
the bday wish was ;
go home with blackie -.-
which im already like going home with him for the past few days ?!?
hahahha, so, it's considered done.
HAHAH,
went home and chatted with him again.
so thats the end ,
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ blackie [?] ]
hahahhaha, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (;
tmr is my dad's bday.
idk what to buy for him -.-
so stressed out . hahhahah.
sooo, today...
went to school
with blackie.
had a lot of fun in school.
became something like an incharge person.
hahahhaha. so cool.
i have a blister on my right thumb ):
hahhahahha, out of context d;
soooooooooo then..
PSP was damn funfunfun (!)
then went home with blackie,
effa, nadhirah and rashiqa.
actually, only with rashiqa and blackie ahhs.
hahahhaha, it was awkward okay (!)
me, nad, iqa and effa went to mac.
with blackie ahhs.
they kept disturbing me and blackie -.-
then effa had to go back to school.
followed her.. with rashiqa and blackie.
nadhirah had to meet her mum then.
she didnt follow back to school.
went to school back....
then effa and rashiqa kept leaving me behind with blackie -.-
but it was fun okay..
cause blackie was like very outgoing..
when they left me behind,
blackie was far behind me then,
blackie ran to me to walk beside me..
hahahha, then when rashiqa saw ,
he smilesmile (!) hahahha,
like he's playing along d;
hahahha. okaaaaaaaaaaaay,
effa suddenly wanted a bday wish.
i was scared... she wanted it from me -.-
i obviously knew it had something to do with blackie and me -.-
andandand then, i didnt promise to do it..
but i said i could try.
the bday wish was ;
go home with blackie -.-
which im already like going home with him for the past few days ?!?
hahahha, so, it's considered done.
HAHAH,
went home and chatted with him again.
so thats the end ,
DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ blackie [?] ]
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/02/2010 08:47:00 PM
@ 3/02/2010 08:47:00 PM
♥Monday, March 1, 2010♥
haaaaalo dear peeps d;
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah,
fun ehy disturb me ?
that line is for filza, rendy, nadhirah && rashiqa.
& adli. & people who said blackie
when teacher called my name -.-
hahahhahahah.
weird day.
to start off,
went to school with safawi.
hahahhaha,
he waited for me at my staircase..
then walked to bus stop..
didnt take same bus as nadhirah ):
took another bus..
it was amazingly very empty..
so , i sat down laaaaa. obviously..
then safawi didnt sit beside me..
he sat quite near me also laaaa d;
thenthenthen.. we msg-ed each other sia.
hahahahhahhahaha..
very random sia.
then a scary guy sit beside me ...
hahhahahahahhahah.
i kept on msg-ing him telling him i was scared
of that guy.. hahaha,
i told him it was all his fault cause he didnt sit beside me,
thats why the scary guy sat beside me.. hahah.
then he said he was sorry and promised me to sit beside me next time d;
hahahha, he just asked me whether can go school together everyday..
weeeeeeeeeeeird. idk..
later cannot go with nadhirah..
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah..
haishh.. PSP was fun..
learnt steps for the dance ((;
then after PSP was more fun,
for those who stayed behind..
safawi was very crazy..
hahahhahahahahhahahhaha.
went home with him after that.
then all the way ,
filza, rendy, nadhirah and rashiqa kept on
teasing me and safawi -.-
hahahhahahah..
in the bus, they left me and safawi standing together -.-
so bad. haaaaaaaaaaaaishh.
then want take picture somemore -.-
DOTDOTDOT ;
dayah [ confused & frustrated ]
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah,
fun ehy disturb me ?
that line is for filza, rendy, nadhirah && rashiqa.
& adli. & people who said blackie
when teacher called my name -.-
hahahhahahah.
weird day.
to start off,
went to school with safawi.
hahahhaha,
he waited for me at my staircase..
then walked to bus stop..
didnt take same bus as nadhirah ):
took another bus..
it was amazingly very empty..
so , i sat down laaaaa. obviously..
then safawi didnt sit beside me..
he sat quite near me also laaaa d;
thenthenthen.. we msg-ed each other sia.
hahahahhahhahaha..
very random sia.
then a scary guy sit beside me ...
hahhahahahahhahah.
i kept on msg-ing him telling him i was scared
of that guy.. hahaha,
i told him it was all his fault cause he didnt sit beside me,
thats why the scary guy sat beside me.. hahah.
then he said he was sorry and promised me to sit beside me next time d;
hahahha, he just asked me whether can go school together everyday..
weeeeeeeeeeeird. idk..
later cannot go with nadhirah..
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah..
haishh.. PSP was fun..
learnt steps for the dance ((;
then after PSP was more fun,
for those who stayed behind..
safawi was very crazy..
hahahhahahahahhahahhaha.
went home with him after that.
then all the way ,
filza, rendy, nadhirah and rashiqa kept on
teasing me and safawi -.-
hahahhahahah..
in the bus, they left me and safawi standing together -.-
so bad. haaaaaaaaaaaaishh.
then want take picture somemore -.-
DOTDOTDOT ;
dayah [ confused & frustrated ]
♥ i will be there for you through it all,
@ 3/01/2010 08:09:00 PM
@ 3/01/2010 08:09:00 PM
THAT rainbow bangle,