haish. life's a real mess.
i feel so lost in this big world.
with nadhirah always with mardhiah.
and me ? what ? fine la..
i dont give a damn la.
i alone also i wouldnt mind.
i feel like breaking down.
i feel so out of place.
like somehow, i just dont belong.
& i feel like nobody understands me.
feels like running away.. but to where ?
i often lock myself in my room..
put on my earpiece and cry hearing emo songs.
no one can hear my cry.. my silent cry..
nobody knows how it feels like when nothing feels alright.
nobody knows how it feels like to be hurt..
nobody knows how it feels like to feel lost..
nobody knows how it feels like to be left out in anything..
nobody knows how it feels like to kicked when you're down..
nobody knows how it feels like to feel like youh have been pushed around..
and nobody knows how it feels like to be on the edge of breaking down..
& no one's there to save youh..
nope, no one knows how it feels like to be ME.
i want to be somebody else.
im so god-damn sick of being left out..
im stuck inside a world that i hate the most..
im so sick of everyone around.
with their big fake smiles and stupid lies while deep inside, im bleeding..
many have lied straight to my face.
& many have stabbed me in my back.
youh might think im happy but im NOT going to be okay..
nobody ever gave me what i wanted.
i will have to work for it..
if i didnt, it would not be there..
haish.. life.. this is what we call LIFE.
Lack
In
Fun &
Exciteness.
that was random. idontcare.
i feel so unwanted.
filza is always with rachel nowadays..
nadhirah with mardhiah..
rashiqa, idk..
ama ? more idk.
safawi is the only one who makes me feel wanted..
idontknow what to do with life.
i keep doing the wrong things.
i know, it wont help by crying.
but it makes me feel better after crying..
but makes my eyes swollen.
haish. life ?
* sigh * now my nose is blocked.
because of crying.
i've got no one to turn to..
my mum ?
everything i say is wrong.
my dad ?
i dont share my problems with him..
my bro ?
i share also, later he will ignore..
well, let me die alone..
let me die in my own sadness.
let me drown in my tears..

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ thefadingstar ]