heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey guys! lol. it's been a long time since i posted something here. been through alot in these past few days. haish. why does she have to complain everything to that person?

deep down inside, it cuts like a knife. but im too proud to show it. the pain in my chest, like i lost my breath. but she just doesnt know it. so many things that im just dying to say, but i cant seem to tell her. if she wants to leave, im not going to beg her to say because i still got my pride, im not going to cry. there wont be no tears falling from these eyes. dont need her to see that it's killing me. i cant believe that i feel so deep, & left my heart so open. now, i got to try to keep it inside. these words in my mind are better left unspoken. but this is what i must let out, if it doesnt, i would suffer in silence & that's not what i want just for something that isnt worth dying for.

semua nk complain. sikitsikit complain. make my name bad. best friends much? yeah, right. just stop it kay? why need revenge? realised i keep shutting up? i just wanna be the quiet one. i dont feel comfortable around some people. & sometimes when im talking, they just leave me out. wth. like just now, i was talking then you turned away & talked to her? so i just shutted the fuck up. why must i talk when no one wants to listen. well, you guys like her more right? im boring, now. well, people change. & i think im changing for the better. i'll just have a smile on my face. maybe i just am not made to make friends easily. i just dont get it. what have i done wrong? seriously. it's like all of a sudden, i lose all my friends?

who take whose best friend sia? you took her away from me dumbass. then go complain to her that i take you away from your best friend & make her hate me? thanks seh. thanks alot. you're really my best friend. yeah, no friends then find me right? yeah, i'll be there for you. & when you found your new friends, it's okay. i'll just fade away for awhile till you want me back.

it's okay luh. the first semester, i had fun. maybe it's time for her to have her time. & here's what i wanna say. if you really feel like im boring, just ask me to leave. really. i'd rather walk away than being insulted & make everyone else emo in the group. i'll just be like raisah ok? just smile. & keep quiet when the rest of you leave me out. but i'll still joke around when it is right to do so. so, i'll be like having moodswings. you may see me angry at one point of time. emo at another time. then i smile. & then i laugh at another point of time.

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ moodswings? ]
ps, it's really ok.