I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life
wishing you were there.

I'm not supposed to wonder
where you are or
what you do...
I'm sorry I can't help myself,
but I'm in love with you.

haishh. hahahha, 2nd post for the day.
((: my problem solved.
im going with my honey.
butbut ;
it's just the feeling you get when you love someone and then you know that you and him wont last long.
gyeahhs. that's the feeling im feeling right now.
towards my honey.
but im ignoring it.
i just want to enjoy the moment while it lasts ((:
okayy, byebye.

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ ihatethatihadoncelovedyouh ]

just a request by nadhirah ((:
so, i blog (!)
baaaaaaaaaaack, hahahha.
many exciting things have been done ;
by me && family.
&& many exciting things came up.
heh ? my love my english.
HAHAHHAHAHA.
told syakirin my problem.
hahha. && idk whether i want to tell it here.
should i ? well, this blog IS private.
so, who is invited only can read this post ((:
so, you ARE invited ((:
&& youh can sure read this post ;

my problem that has been bugging me..

is..
well, it's hard to explain.
but this song is my whole problem ;

Di Sana Menanti Di Sini Menunggu

which basically means;
there are two guys in my life.
which are BOTH waiting for my answer.
but basically im already attached to one of them.
actually there are 3 guys.
but one of them backed out
&& he said that he is fine with me being bffs with him ((:

Seumur hidup aku
Ini yang pertama
Pintu hatiku diketuk
Oleh dua jejaka .

hahha, lol.
im just going with the floooooow. ((:
so, i just choose honeyku d;
and the other one,
i d k. hahahhahahah .
he doesnt seem to be serious,
so, idk && idc. d;

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd now,
time to talk about the taxi driver.
i took a taxi yesterday..
haha, nothing new. durh.
but this taxi driver was kinda funny.
he didnt talk to us at all.
we just told him where we wanted to head to,
and we chatted amongst ourselves ;
me - bro - mum ((:
and then, my mum asked the taxi driver something,
but he didnt answer. && my mum was like,
expecting an answer.
then she looked at me.
&& was blushing , cause the taxi driver didnt answer her.
i started to laugh.
then she asked again, but this time, with his name.
AND THEN he asnwered,
oh ! ermm, okay.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA.
i think he thought that my mum was talking to me
or my brother. && yesterday was my brother's b'day ((:
happy brithday , big brother ((:
18 years old eyhh. da legal. d;
went to eat at ARNOLD'S , yumyum.
and that was where my hips or waist ,
started aching. i didnt know why.
but it made me kind of paralysed.
my both whole legs were in pain.
haishh. i was like wobbly.
couldnt supprot myself. haishh.
God knows how painful it was.
i began to imagine my mum calling 911, [?]
ambulance ? hahha.
and the paramedics bringing the stretcher for me..
and i was dazed. i was only thinking of that.
but soon, it recovered. but still not fully.
i still feel the acheness [ ? ]
hahaha. im still in pain uhhs !
ahhaha, that's all.
&& I LOVE MY MOON (!)
yay ! hahahhahahha.
my moon right ?
im the sun right ? gahhahhaa.
muahah, k enough.
done-d.

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ nadhiraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah (!) ]

fun things done-d ;

went out with family
&& RENOVATED my room!
yaaaaaaay ! ilovemynewroom (:
hahas. yesterday went out with,
my mummy, daddy && dearest bro !
(: hahas, to celebrate me mummy's b'day (:
went out to GEYLANG to eat first d;
then went to parkway parade !
shopping lerr ! hahas. d;
i bought :
NEW SHOES
NEW BAG
NEW WALLET
NEW BOOK !
weeeeeeeee ! so happy gyeahhs !
ahaha. we had fun !
hahahs, it's just so fun.
me && dearest bro made jokes most of the time !
hahahs. the craiest siblings ever. haishh. ahaha.
when dayah meets diy = chaos !
hahahs, funfunfun ! d;
thenthen, went home.
weeeeeeets !
today is my mummy's bday !
happy birthday mummy !
yesterday celebrated so today,
renovated me bedroom !
ahaha. as i told youh,
i love my new room de la.
ahaha. well had fun again.
with mua dearest bro (:
hahahs ! (: busy lah seyh.
ahaha. nothing much to say.
but it was funny when my dad,
saw a lizard and started to " scream ? "
ahaha. what a sight.
then it disappeared.
hahahs. i went down with brother to throw
away some things that are not needed hahs.
then went to take the lift (:
ontheway down the stairs,
suddenly heard my neighbour talking,
my bro && me went up up && away !
ahaha. what a crazy thing to do.
my brother's idea hahs.
then went home,
my dad ask to throw somemore things.
then the lizard appeared !
ahahah ! crazy lizard.
my dad took the broom &&
started hitting it.
the tail came off, eeew, what a sight.
but my dad didnt give it a chance to crawl away!
he killed it mercilessly.
awwww, i just named it lizardman.
haish.. now, lizardman's dead.
ahahahahah ! kekek pe.
hmmm..
well, nothing else to say.
just that shah msg me.
sorry for not replying !
been busy !
sorrysorrysorry!

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ sorry, honey ] (:

just walkwalk de la.
nothing to do one.
haishh,,
here's the best part,
i saw HYDIRIDRIS!
woohts! aithinkonly.
haha. caause he looks damn different.
with his new hairstyle && black shirt && cargo pants && SLIPPERS?
ahaha.. like not him. haishh.
but still cute de la.
cause he wants to take the escalator down.
then i also want to take the escalator.
then the escalator dunno why dun wan move.
haishh. ahaha.. then i noticed him,
i told my brother : hydir right?
then he turn behind [ dun wan take the escalator ]
then saw me. ahaha.. at least now,
he knows my existence d;
then he look at me then quickly go away.
ahaha. so cute.
okayy, that is alllllll d;

DOTDOTDOT ;;
DAYAH [ hydir (!) ]

Im bored with your love.
I think we're just wasting time.
You're not serious, are you?

I think we are not compatible.
It's better for us to let it go.
Let me be on my own, forever.

I dont think you are faithful,
although your soul and life
were given to me as a sign of love.

Impossible for me to believe,
your words that are full of lies.
I love your sweet talk, oh, so hurtful now.
Adding to my madness, disappointed.
I feel confused.

Times and times you say,
PLEASE! Don't repeat your lies.
Dont you comfort a broken heart.

It's impossible for me to come back to you.
If promise is just a dream,
im not the same as you, liar.

Yeahh.. Ahaha.. heartbroken.. haishh.
idk, i think love is hurtful.
and just a waste of time.
blehhs. zelch. haishh..
okayy, that is all. ahaha..

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ haishh ]

went out with family.
to the beach. d;
walked and talked and joked. d;
ate aloooooooooooooooooot.
ahahahq, then crisis happened. haishh.
lazy to talk about it lorhhs.
haishh. ahahahqs. d;
dani so sweet. ahahah.
thanks buddy (: ahaha.
i like the song (:
menatap matamu. && bila terasa rindu
yeahhs, nice. thaaaaaaanks.
you'll always be in my heart d;
ahahah. but, we arent so close anymore..
yeahh, nehmind. it's okay,
you got to go with your dad yeahh (:
i understand d;
wokaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, done.

hmm, then just now went to MCP therethere d;
ahaha. went to KFC,
then went to buy groceries d;
ontheway home, stopped by my mother's friend shop de la.
ahahah, very fun. listen to her advices.
yeahh, i will listen to youhh!
XD ahaha. okayokay,
but 4 years difference? haiyohh.
she say, if want to have a husband,
better take the more matured one,
so that he is more matured,
have a capable job & all. d;
but she ask me to find like 4 years diff.
hmmm.. ahahah..
before that she ask me,
where im schooling laa.
then i say, dont know yet.
but 1st choice is tampines sec.
then she like look away, then ask my mum..
ahaha.. then my mum say, dont know yet..
then she was like blurrblurr.
then talked & talked. then suddenly she say,
ouhh! she p6 ahr? i thought poly already.
poly is 12 years old huh? coolness.
then ontheway home, [really go home]
another friend of my mum,
saw us. ahaha. she talk && talk laaa.
after that, she ask me, what am i doing now?
[ as in, what are you doing - schooling / working ]
then i say next year im sec 1.
she say, huh? really? i thought you poly student !
ahahah, so cute. ahahah..
then my auntie thought i work ready de la.
haishh. haiyohh. hmmmmmmmmmmm,
work ahr, work.. haishh. greatjobbb d;

okay that is all.
byebye.

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ iloveyouh ]

I thought of you today,
but that's nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday,
and the day before that too.

For every day good or bad ,
you'll always be in my head.
I hope you've understood,
everything I've said.

This isn't just a joke,
or a silly lie.
Id never do anything,
to make you wanna cry.

I'm sorry if I do something,
to make you really mad.
It only comes back,
and makes me really sad.

I really do love you,
and everything you are.
I hope this relationship,
gets really farfar [?]

I'll never get you out,
I simply don't know how.
In fact I'm thinking of you,
right about now (!)

Your everything I need,
and everything to me.
You know exactly who you are,
and what you want to be..

You always make me smile,
just by being there.
I hope you know how much,
i really do care.

Every time i think of you,
my stomach seems to twist.
This is why i love you,
Ive made a huge list.

The list goes on forever,
and never will it end.
Neither will our relationship,
you'll aways be my friend.

not just a simple friend,
but a special friend at that.
I want to spend my whole life with you,
i'll really do that.

I honestly love you,
I hope you love me too.
This isn't just a stupid game,
I hope you feel the same.

Because today tomorrow,
my whole life through -
I will never stop
- loving you.

nice? ahahahq. i made this when i was..
idk.. i found it in my diary.
oldoldold diary. ahahahq.

DOTDOTDOT;
dayah [ his [?] ]

waiting for my rocking chair to come.
MY rocking chair. noone can sit. d;
so bored.. haiyohh..
If I was standing on the balcony
And you were walking down below
I'd feel rather depressed and out of place
And lonely just to watch you go
If you were swinging from the highway overpass
Within the western hemisphere
I'd feel rather afraid and insincere
If you began to disappear

If I was walking through a sad art gallery
And you were driving through the night
I'd feel rather alone and ill at ease
Beneath the brilliant showroom light
If I was flying on a plane above your town
And you were gazing at the sky
Somehow I'd feel intact and reassured
If you began to wave goodbye .

ahahahq. emo-ing.
yesterday, i was listening to songs on my phone.
and was using my earpiece.
i was thinking about relationships.
then i thought about him, if i should accept him.
then i said to myself : if syakirin were here,
she would definitely help me.
but she wasnt here.
so, suddenly my phone turned on the song :
i'll remember you. and i began to cry.
haishh. and the guy, idk.
i asked my brother.
he said, to give me time to think about it.
but i already said it a few days ago..
haiyohh. then i dont know laaaaaaa.
haishh.. next year, no syakirin.
haishhhhhhhh. then just now,
read her blog, cried.
haiyohh. so emo - me. lol.
i never thought it would feel like this.
i'll remember you, and SHARKY, that's forever true!
you're the one that i'll always miss.

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ officiallyhis haishh ]

yeahh. geddit right.
went out with my aunty and her child.
child eh child. hmmm..
with my mum, of course.
go where ah? geylang.. hmmm..
waited for them for quite a long time.
then they came.
then my aunty gave me a GUCCI bag ahh.. d;
ahahahahahahahahq lol.
went to pasar geylang. O.O!
bought a dress [ myaunty ]
after that go eat. ahahahq.
chose a place.
sat down. think what to eat.
then buzz off. hmmm..
khairi [ aunty'sson ]
khairi go buy food for himself.
i go buy drinks.
then my mum ask me to sit first.
then she and my aunty go buy food.
then idk what she do.. so late..
stuck with me and khairi.
damn awkward.
but luckily he is not shy.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
he started a conversation.
he ask me what sec i am.
i say next year sec 1.
then he laugh.. [ yeahyeah, funny right? o.o! ]
then he ask my agg..
i say 212, he laugh again.
then he say, express ahq?
i say, yeah. then he laugh and nodded.
he ask me what is my school choice,
i say, tampines sec.
he LAUGH. AGAIN!!!!!!
he say : 1st choice ah?
i say : yeah.
he : 2nd choice?
me : eastspring.
he : ouhh, every school around there ah?
me : yeahh (: [ have smile ahq ]
he : ouhh kayy.
a loooooooooooong pause.
then he say : DAH [ my name that i hate to be called ] !
* i thought he was talking to himself. *
then i looked up, he was looking at me O.O!
he was calling me de..
i thought he said : dah ( finish )
then he say, jemput makan (:
ahahahahq! lol. funny.
one-of-a-kind.
he is quite okay la.. ahahahq!
then after that bought alot of things ahq.
for my aunty.
then after that idk..
ahahahq. lol.
the rest not fun, no need explain.
but most of the time,
me and him together . >.<"
cause ny mum and aunty go look2 dress la what la..
then i and him just stand outside the shops.
ahahahahq! lol.
okayy, to syakirin.
this post is for syakirin hor!
ahahahaq.. byebye
oh yeah, forgot to say.
he smart ahq..
he is 2nd in his class hor.
but he idk, express or na or nt!
ahahahq! lol.
not that smart la.
ahahhaa. but still smart in HIS class (:

DOTDOTDOT;
dayah [ irono ]

yesterday nothing better to do.
hmmph. ahahahq d; and..
ALIF is back in SINGAPORE!
weeeeeeeeeeeee !~
he message-d me and said, he's back!
welcome back! (:
then he say : text you back later.
then i wait.. till 11.40 then i off my phone,
i could feel that someone was trying to text me.
i could just feel it. and then, just now i checked.
yeahh. he messaged me. at 11.41 ! stupidme.
then nothing else happened..
just messaged my 'honey' .
idk. he always call me 'syg' .
idk laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
now, listening to dani's songs. O.O"
time for miracles, cintaku.. and many more..
ahahahq. so bored. (:
sebelum kau kata putus, tunggu.
ahahahq, very nice. (:
so bored. sezairi and sylvia!!!!! woots!
my two of three favourite sg idol!
1 - faizal isa.
2 - sylvia
3 - sezairi
woots! but faizaaaaaaaaaaal! noo! ahahahq.
okayy, nothing better to do.
iloveMYmoon (:
ahahahq. nadnadnad! woots!
wokaaaaaaaaay, that is all.
byebye ily. takecare.

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ hateMYbroadband, loveMYmoon, lovehateloveMYhoney ]

well, it was kinda fun.. d;
but iwilllovesfc forever !
went to watch ; NEWMOON!
stupidbellaswan. ilovejacob d;
ahahahq! woots! iloveedwardtoo.
i guess im like bellaswan now.
hmmm, but i'll choose.. QUIL!
d; ahahahq! im crazy! ahahahq!
thelegendofzorro. laughs. onteeveenow.
channelfive. watching it later on.
hmmm, i guess taylor lautner is damnhot.
ahahahq! in the movie, he is hot ;
because he is the werewolf & he is hot laaa.
but in real life, he is soooo damn hothot!
hothot, like a fire, we're electric hearts, d;
imsosad. next year, we are going our -
SEPARATE WAYS ! nooooooooooooo!
a nightmare . nonono, i mean..
we are going to be PRIMARY6! ahahahq!
we are from junyuan! yeahh! but -
Rashiqa betrayer ahhqs!
wear east view socks eyy.. ahahahq! socute.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee !~ ahahahq!
favouriteguy. iloveyouh! muacks.
referring to.. jacob black! ahahahq,
my jacobblack. o.o ahahahq. ermm,
my brother is behind me. ahahahq!
; lol . d; that is all. byebye.

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ claire ] & { quil's }