i was so shocked when youh asked that question.
youh doubted my love to youh..
omg. of course i love youh...... ):
i feel so bad.
im always causing youh pain.
im always at fault.
idk why.. im such a sucker for love.
im sorry syg.. ): i really am...

You are the sun,
who brightens up my day.
You are the moon,
who brightens up my night.

You are the ray,
in my every hope.
You are the key,
to my success.

You are the one,
that makes me smile.
You are the one,
that makes me laugh.

That's you, mum.
You are my love.
You are my life.
You are my everything.

But I wonder, am I your sun,
who brightens up your day?
Am I your moon,
who brightens up your night?

Am I the ray,
in your every hope?
Am I the key,
to your success?

Am I the one,
that makes you smile?
Am I the one,
that makes you laugh?

Or am I rather, the dark clouds,
that spoils your sunny day?
The dark clouds,
that hides the moon away?

When you hope upon me,
do I let you down?
When you want to succeed,
do I support you?

Am I the one,
that makes you sad?
Am I the one,
that make you cry?

I'm sorry for all the wrong things that I have done.
I just want you to know that I love you, mum.
I just want you to know that you are my everything.
Please, just don't give up on me.

DOTDOTDOT;
DAYAH [ a tribute to mother ]
is it okay :D

iloveyouhsomuch.
15 APRIL 2010 .
at exactly 07:21:28 pm, he kissed me.
omg. okeay, here's the whole story :D

at first, he had to go and do his dnt
when we had already promised that we would meet and spend time together..
he was really sad when i asked him to go for dnt..
he really wanted to spend time with me..
then i think that he thought that i didnt care..
haish.. then i thought he would be emo when he meets me later on..
but he wasnt emo at all, despite getting scolded by dnt teacher and all..
instead, he was laughing and being crazy all the way.
haha, it was really cute.
we met at library. and he sat beside me and all.
walked around and had a tour around the library ( 2nd level )
hmmm, at around 6.50, went out of library.
took bus 69 home.. and talked with safawi alot :D
* not forgetting nad. which was hyper with me *
hhahahahaha, then i said that if he should go home first,
no need to send me home, he said okay..
then when he reached his block, he said:
okay bye. i go home first kay? cium!
then he kissed me.
then i was like.. wow.. i was speechless sia.
then i just said,
okay , takecare. iloveyouh.
then he said iloveyouhtoo.
& it was really dark.. it was a very nice setting..
ahh, i wished it would happen again :D

i was trying to fly but i couldnt find wings..
but youh came along and youh changed everything..

youh lift my feet off the ground, youh spin me around..
you make me crazier..
feels like im falling and i'm lost in your eyes
you make me crazier..

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ ilovehimsomuch ]

haish. life's a real mess.
i feel so lost in this big world.
with nadhirah always with mardhiah.
and me ? what ? fine la..
i dont give a damn la.
i alone also i wouldnt mind.
i feel like breaking down.
i feel so out of place.
like somehow, i just dont belong.
& i feel like nobody understands me.
feels like running away.. but to where ?
i often lock myself in my room..
put on my earpiece and cry hearing emo songs.
no one can hear my cry.. my silent cry..
nobody knows how it feels like when nothing feels alright.
nobody knows how it feels like to be hurt..
nobody knows how it feels like to feel lost..
nobody knows how it feels like to be left out in anything..
nobody knows how it feels like to kicked when you're down..
nobody knows how it feels like to feel like youh have been pushed around..
and nobody knows how it feels like to be on the edge of breaking down..
& no one's there to save youh..
nope, no one knows how it feels like to be ME.
i want to be somebody else.
im so god-damn sick of being left out..
im stuck inside a world that i hate the most..
im so sick of everyone around.
with their big fake smiles and stupid lies while deep inside, im bleeding..
many have lied straight to my face.
& many have stabbed me in my back.
youh might think im happy but im NOT going to be okay..
nobody ever gave me what i wanted.
i will have to work for it..
if i didnt, it would not be there..
haish.. life.. this is what we call LIFE.
Lack
In
Fun &
Exciteness.
that was random. idontcare.
i feel so unwanted.
filza is always with rachel nowadays..
nadhirah with mardhiah..
rashiqa, idk..
ama ? more idk.
safawi is the only one who makes me feel wanted..
idontknow what to do with life.
i keep doing the wrong things.
i know, it wont help by crying.
but it makes me feel better after crying..
but makes my eyes swollen.
haish. life ?
* sigh * now my nose is blocked.
because of crying.
i've got no one to turn to..
my mum ?
everything i say is wrong.
my dad ?
i dont share my problems with him..
my bro ?
i share also, later he will ignore..
well, let me die alone..
let me die in my own sadness.
let me drown in my tears..

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ thefadingstar ]

hmmm, let me see what to say to my BIE ( scandal )
hahhaa. hmmmm, i think...
if youh feel hurt whenever youh think of him,
he's not the one..
THE ONE should be able to make youh happy whenever youh think of him.
if he's the one, he would not have kept youh waiting..
forever. he should have made the first step.
nadhirah, you're pretty.
other guys could have fallen for youh.
even * IF * has ever fallen for youh..
you're wrong that you're not pretty.
hmm, if i were youh, i'd quit hoping for him..
find someone nearer to youh.
long distance relationship IS GOD-DAMN hard.
i know, i've had one. & youh know the outcome right ?
we broke up. im not asking youh to like him ( the irritating guy ).
i just want youh to find someone who could make youh happy.
& is near youh. so youh wont miss the person too much.
well, it's up to youh. that's just my advice as your BIE (:
iloveyouh, bie. takecare of yourself aite.
dont do stupid stuffs.
& i love my syg d; hahahhaha.

DOTDOTDOT ;
DAYAH [ his ]