Give me any reason to believe 'cause I swear I'm done here. 'Cause I've seen a bigger picture and I'm looking for some answers. Tell me that it's worth it 'cause I'm doing all I can to fight it. And I've never been this scared and my moment's finally here. Time's racing, please slow down. I've got to find my way out. I'm hopeless but hoping my lungs won't fail me now 'cause I'm still breathing.

It's hard to be a girl, but I'm doing all I can. I'm ready to give this all I have, I'm ready to be amazed. 'Cause I'm standing here alone, trying to make this life my own. And nothing will keep this heart from beating, I'm still breathing!

Promise me some dignity if I were to stand and die here. 'Cause my heart is somewhere else, it's a pain I've never felt.

This is the memory, this is the curse of having too much to think about it. It's killing me, this is the last time, this is my forgiveness, this is endless.

Haha, so that's by Mayday Parade (: I love the songs :D Haha, AHHH! Haha, ok. Hmm, I am feeling so hurrrrrrt! Gosh. My lipssssssss! AHH! So, now, waiting for him to message. Haha, so umm today..

Today went well. I guess everything's back to normal. No more tears for me, nor nadhirah. No more heartaches. No more fucked up moods. Haha, so yeah. I'm still curios about that girl, NAD! Haiyoooos! Seriously, sape sak. Haha, should have kejar-ed her. ):

Does anyone know who this girl is? She wears Red Ite shirt. She ties her hair in a ponytail. She is puteh puteh. She wears short black skirt. Umm, she is with a guy/girl with long black pants. He/she has hair like Justin Bieber & umm, yeah that's all. Hahahaha! And maybe she is from ite Simei / Dover / Yishun / Bedok / Bishan / Pasir Panjang / Balestier / Tampines / Clementi / Ang Mo Kio / Bukit Batok / MacPherson. Now, who has any idea this girl is cause I gave all her details already but I just don't know her name / herself. But she said Hi, ni Hidayah? So yeah (: Peace. Haha, now tell me, how am I supposed to find her? AHAHAH! Nad, nad.

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, umm. Bye (:

- Ida Juliet.

Formspring questions are getting on my nerves, questions asked by unknown people, mostly. Especially people who keep asking me to break up and asking me whats so special about him that makes me go through all these just to be with him. Okay, you wanna know?

I know that these few days have been shitty for us. But I guess it's just ups and downs in life. In love. Yeah. So, chill yeah! We can work it out, I know. Why I love him?

I can be myself whenever I'm with him. I don't have to be somebody else, he accepts me for who I am. He loves me, even with all my faults. He's never boring. He still loves me, even when I'm grumpy. He lets me give him a detailed description of how I spent my day. He never makes fun of me. He never stops me from telling a story all over again. He always knows when something ain't right. He knows how to make me smile. When he listens, I know he's really listening and not just waiting for his turn to talk. He makes the best out of everything. He tries his best to work things out. He never gives up on me and that's what keeps me going. He understands if I forget something worth remembering. He never gets mad at me, even if I drive him up the wall. He endures my attitude and crap. He had always been the first one to text me. He's the one who sends me good morning messages and long good night messages. He has never forgotten to remind me that he loves me. Lastly, I love him because he brings out the best in me.

Now tell me, isn't it worth it, if I have to go through all of these shits, just to be with him? He's like one and only. I know, I know, I know, about the girl. But he loves me, what else matters? Maybe I'm stupid to hold on, but maybe I'm not. Let's just see how it goes. I don't need those questions at formspring, ok. I know what I'm doing. Thanks for reminding about the things I wanna forget.

Baby, see, a small thing can really ruin us. People see, people spread. People don't know the truth.

What I hate about him? I will be lying if I said nothing. Of course there's a few things I hate about him. But, people have flaws. I accept him for who he is. Nobody's perfect. But we can always try to be. He tries to change. So, yeah (:

Ida Juliet.

Hello. I am bored. Oh, just came back home. I went to meet Mum, Rizal & Cik Seri ( Rizal's mum ) Hehehe. Basically, we went out together to eat dinner (: So yeah.

Ate at Mad Jack. My mum pay. Hahaha, tk perlu bilang I know. And then, sat separately 'cause alot of people. I sat with Rizal and our mums sat together. So, I ate like seriously comot. Hahaha, Rizal kept laughing at me. Wah seh, malu uh sia. Haha. Rizal was the one asking me to reply him. So yeah, I did. But I guess it was a wasted effort.

Rizal ate the same meal as me but he finished first. Pfft, then he was so proud. Like, wth. Hahaha. And then umm, oh yeah. He remembered that he had a surprise for me. Then.... He placed in on the table. Guess what guess what? A ring! HAHAHA! Jkjk, a flowered hairpin that I have been wanting since the last time we met. Hahaha, oh nk tawu? Hahahha, that time, went shopping with him uh. Then I saw this nice hairpin. Reddish pink flower. And then, I wanted to save money uh. It was 5 bucks. I was like, mahal pe? But I wanted it so badly uh. Hahaha. And then he keep laughing cause I act like budak kecik wanting susu. Hahahahhahahha! Wtf I know.

So yeah, then today he gave me :D Wheeeeeee. And then after eating, dropped by my house cause my mum want to give lauk. I just sit uh, on tv then lepak. Then he walk to me then say " Eh kau bau bachin siak. Gi mandi uh sia! " And then he laughlaugh. WTFFFFFFFFF. Haha. Lol sia! I was like, " Aku peh pasal uh sia, sebok pe hal? " with a minah look. Then he said " Eh chillax minah. Marah eh cik adik oi? " Haha, then I chase him around the house. Then he fall. Stupid sia. So after that, when about to go home, he talked like emo like that. He said that he'll be leaving Singapore soon. ): Alaaahai. Then tell me about maner nyer pompuan entah. Then I tell him about my life uh. Then he tried to comfort me tapi tk menjadi cause he gagap when wanting to comfort people. HAIYO.

So then, he went off. I go bathe. So now, nothing. ): Byebye.

- Ida Juliet.
Oh, he called me a Diva 'cause I put on the clip. MEPEK.
I called him Hustler. Hahahahhaha. K lame.

PEOPLEEEEEEEEEE, hello (: Tomorrow's valentines.

When I get home, I will try to post more. Just going out with mummy and cuzzy later (: Cuzzy say have surprise. I wonder what. Haha, ok peace ^^v

- Ida Juliet.

Well here it goes, as per promised. I wanna BLOG. Hahahaha, today is a Friday. Woahhh. Hahaha, well, had p.e in the morning which was damn tiring and fucked up cause NADHIRAH wasn't in the same group as me..................... Haha, so yeah. Super tired. Then, mother tongue came. TORTUREEEEE. Hahaha, Haadee & his crap >< Then umm, recess <3 Hahahahha, ate spaghetti which was super fucking nice siaaaaaaaa! <3 I loike. Then it was history. Then it was geography & I failed ittttttttt! Grrr by 1 mark siaaaaaaaaaaa. Haha, then class bonding (: Oh anyways, decided on a class tee alr. I hope it turns out nice <3

So, after school, leypaaaaaaaaaaak. Had so much fun. And then, Awi came. Then yeah. Then I don't know what happened to me. Then yeah. Hahahaha. Went home at 3.45pm cause I had to photocopy something. And then, went out with brother to go photocopy (: It was fun. I tried out the KOI Cafe's Caramel Milk Tea. Super yummmmmy! Alot of pearls, which my brother keep on 'spitting' it out, accidentally. Hahahah. So, met his friend, Sandy. She's cute, with her mum sooooo cute! Hahahaha, I loike themmm! <3

So I have nothing else to say. Go to my facebook to see happening things and I just recorded a song sang by me :D Hehehehehe. So yeah (:

- Ida Juliet.

You say you don't hate me. But you don't love me either. /: what has happened to us.

Baby, is it over? Over between us? After 10 months, this is what you say? What ever happened to forever, bby? What?

30th march,
dayah, you know that i like you kan?
can you be my stead?

4th feb,
dayah, you know that i love you kan?
can we be best friends?

I just can't believe this. I don't know what to say. Just tell me if you don't love me anymore.

- I love the way you lie.

Well, if you think that long hair and eye-liner suits you, what if I say that tube dress and miniskirts suits me?

GREAT LUH K. DAH STOPPIT KAY. PLEASE. STOP ACTING AS IF YOU CARE. OK? ALRIGHT.

SERIOUS SHIT. I HATE THIS. LIKE SERIOUSLY, DO I EVEN MATTER AT ALL NOW? DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT ME? DO YOU EVEN BOTHER TO CHECK ON ME? DO YOU EVEN BOTHER IF I'M NOT OK? DO YOU STILL LOVE ME LIKE I STILL LOVE YOU?

I GUESS IM JUST A SUCKER FOR LOVE.

Hi guys (: I'm super hungryyyyy _|_ haha, middle finger was so not needed. Just wanted to type that out. t(-.-t) Hahahah! I like that one much moreeee ♥ Ok, now I'm thirsty &&&&& hungry! Wahlaaaaaaoehhh. I seriously thought I saw it was 2pm when I looked at the clock in my living room! FUHHYOO, but now when I look at it, it's just like what? 1.30pm? SIOL. Haha. I am super lonely. Thanks for being here for me, Latto ( just named my Laptop that when I was typing this out ) Latto reminds me of Latte. Wahlao, THIRSTYYYY ):<

Yesterday a guy asked me about my PM. He thought I was fighting with my boyf. Haha, stupid. JKJK, does this quote make you think that I'm fighting with my boyf? " Dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty sucka! You think I can't get hurt like you, you motherf. I can do it like a brother! " Hahaha! What only. Okay, so yeah, I'm not fighting with my boyf. I just feel weird these days. ~Something about us, doesn't seem right these days. " LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Maybe it's cause of the Long Distance. Haish. I still can't accept the fact that he's no longer in my school.

Apit & New Boyz songs are stuck in my head. Especially ' takku sangka takku duga & cintaku dipermainkan " by Apit. And the song ' sejarah mungkin berulang & marah bukan sifatku ' by new boyz & not forgetting the songs from the late Achik and Nana. Nana is still alive ok. Hehe. Ok, so now I don't know what to say. I just can't keep him off my mind, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok, I just made maggie (: HEHE. NAK? CANNOOOOT! HAHA. OK I'M BORED. LATER I CONTINUE THIS POST, IF I'M NOT LAZY ANYMORE!

- IDA JULIET.