It's kinda crazy that I keep on coming back. First we make up and then, we fight and break up again. It's obvious to see that you're just no good for me but still I find myself holding on cause every time the phone beeps, I'm hoping it's you. It's hard to be without you, I don't know what to do. These walls are closing in on me, I cant seem to breathe. I try to pull away from you but it's killing me because I cant stop loving you. Can't seem to find the truth, you got me so confused. If you only knew all the things you put me through. My friends keep telling me that I shoot up and leave but they don't understand that I'm addicted to you.

-Ida Rahim

Haai. It has been so long since I last posted. Damn. Too many things have been on my mind. Well, to start off, aku realise yaung banyak benda yang aku sembunyikan dari orang. Even Nad. I'm sorry, but I just think that bottling things up are better. I don't know, maybe I just want to put on a tough act? But today, I realised that I'm not that strong anymore. After all the shit I've been through. Thanks Cikgu Farhan, for having us do this.

What he asked us to do was write down my problems. Let it all out.At first, I thought it was a stupid idea till I realised how much things I have been keeping to myself. Well, I don't have a guy who listens to my problems. Normally if I had problems, I would tell my guy but apparently, this time, no. I don't think he even cares to know if I'm alright. I don't even know if he checks my blog. So fuck it. Then, I realised that no one actually wants to care about my problems, some are just curious. But I know Nad isnt like that but I just prefer keeping things to myself, recently. Sorry Nad.. c: So then, when he asked us to write, there was silence. I think I can think in silence. Suddenly, I thought about all the things I've been crying about at home. Well, you guys know, I can never cry in front of you guys. But just now, when I wrote about my problems, I just couldn't help but cry. Although my problems may be stupid to you guys, it just hurts me like hell. And no, it's not about my guy. I just realised there are many other things that I should worry about..

Okay, that's all. Nad, I don't know if I want to tell you about my problems /: It's just so hard to tell. I don't think you'll understand.. /:

Hiiiii, sudah lamer saye tidak update yer xD Hehe. So, saye tgh rase serba salah disini. Nad tawu luh kenape ye. Heh.

Okay, selamat hari raye~ Maaf zahir dan batin!