when i said "i'm over him" what i really mean was, i still pray for him to love me and be with me again,i still wish for him at 11:11,i cry myself to sleep,almost every night,while thinking about what we had,what we could've and what i want us to be in the future,i still think of him 24/7,i'm still in pain,i still want him and i still love him with everything i have and everything that i am.when someone tells me,that he does not deserve me,i still answer "yes,he does", and i even sometimes say "i didn't deserve him" and that's why he left" eventhough i know it's not right,i'm still jealous of the girl he's now in love with,and i still wish it was me. i still have his number on my phone,and i've not deleted the messeges he sent me,i still got his pictures and i'm so not over him
sigh. i fuckin miss you, ridhuan. but i guess you've moved on. i just cant seem to find anyone to replace you. im still in love with you. no matter how hard i try, i just cant forget you..